Sunday, May 21, 2006
Im all set for tomorrow.. a brand new day, brand new me, brand new start.. yeah!I have completed everything in my to-do list in preparation for tomorrow:1. Change my hair style (I layered it) - sponsered by my bf (he made me mention this!)2. Change my hair color (Its in Light Auburn - brownish blond for some of you) - also thanks to my bf3. Change my wardrobe of clothes (not all of em.. just bought a few more formal looking ones) 4. Added another 3 pairs of shoes to my already over flowing shoerack :P5. Prepared a new handbag which i have not used.. bought from my Bangkok trip6. Medical check-up doneOne thing not done is to prepare for my mental clock to wake up much earlier tomorrow onwards.. haha.. been waking almost close to 12pm everyday.. how am i suppose to drag myself up early at 6.45am tomorrow?? Wish me luck!
Sunday, May 21, 2006
Friday, May 19, 2006
Today is my last day being so free in like.. uh.. 2 years..? haha.. never had such a long break b4 since i started working.. a bit bored.. missing loads of people ;;).. but am enjoying myself.. been reading novels (yea.. i stopped reading since i went to college.. but my lil sis borrowed me a book called 'The Devil Wears Prada'.. and claimed that i will like it.. well.. i havent finished reading it.. but i already loved it.. haha.. trust sis to know what books i like huh :P) kudos to my lil sis..Been all around KL shopping, lazing around, chatting and catching up with people i haven got the chance to catch up with for ages, going out for supper late at nite, not caring wat time to wake up the next day... man.. i really missed that kind of life.. feels like im back to college or something... making me miss college life even more now.. *sobs* i wanna go back n studyyyyy....if i have the money, i will definately go back to study.. hmm.. one day... some day..Been doing lots of thinking lately too.. deep thoughts of what i really want to do in my life, my future.. will I be satisfied with what i have in life right now? or do i wanna do even more things.. but each time i think about it, i will always get stuck on one main problem.. yeps.. money.. sigh.. everything that i do, that i wanna do.. will need money.. when will i earn enuf to realise my dreams? or worst.. will i ever get to realise my dreams..?? I have boombastic dreams, dreams that will come to reality if only i can ever cross the 'money' hurdle... there are so many things that i wanna to do, to achieve in my life.. but somehow, it gets stuck somewhere in the middle of my plan.. sigh...I guess i have to think harder then, on what i can do to achieve it.. hmm.. think. think..think... so many plans but none is working...yet.... (any sponsers out there?) hahaI have one plan in mind that definately will work thou.. thats a small one.. teeny weeny one, that can be, and will be, achieved.. im only waiting for the right time to execute my plan.. no hurry on that.. but it wunt bring me big bucks in instance.. have to work it out slowly.. VERY slowly.. (am not planning to rob a bank of anything.. so dun got to the police)..hahaMy prev experience in my ex-co is making me having lots of doubts in joining any new companies.. will there be a repetition of what had happened in the past year.. i keep calming myself down.. thinking that there will be no other companies that will ever win the title of 'The World's Worst Company' other thn RAT..yeah.. thats right... im sure that there is no other places that will be as fucked up as that place.. This is life.. we are always in doubt of what will happen of us in the future.. because of an unpleasent past, makes us worry even more, whether will the same incidents happen again? But i have confidence in the new place that i will be going.. its far more professional and systematic in the way they run things in there.. you can see it by yourself if you are there.. the difference between here and there, its like heaven and hell.. Whatever it is.. i brace myself for a new beginning.. a fresh start.. forget about what has happened.. focus on what will happen.. the future.. my future..It is not going to be easy.. new place, new environment, new people, new friends, new tasks.. but for me, all this is just a new challange for me.. everyone needs a change once in a while, to perk up their lives.. no same old boring routine for 10..20..30 years.. i will rather kill myself then.. :P.. so people... here i come.. i gotta feeling that i will love the new place.. i dunno why.. but hey.. the chinese always say.. 'nu ren de zhi jue hen jun de o'!! (translated to english: a women's sixth sense is always very accurate) hahaha.. ADIOS amigos....
Friday, May 19, 2006
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
Thus continuation from my previous post, I have decided to write a letter in loving memories to my favorite people in RAT:
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IN EVER LOVING MEMORY OF Raytiers-AT (RAT) who is deemed PASSED AWAY, in my heart on 16th May 2006 R.I.P
Dear Friends in RAT,
One thing i dun understand about this 'friends' of mine.. when you know that the goddess is manipulating you, YES they promote you, YES they give you increment, YES they let you have subordinates, but dont you get it? its all a scam.. BIG scam that all the bastards in there plan.. right now, thay cant dispose you as they did to the others.. thats because they NEED you.. they cannot afford to lose you, they are giving you all those, indirectly BEGGING you to stay with them.. at least until they find you not useful anymore.. thn they find excuses to get rid of you.. just like what they did to everyone else.. you have eyes and ears.. u judge for yourself.. i dont want to brand you as stupid..
To the other 'friend' of mine, who somehow is 'Gila Kuasa', knowing that you are glad that finally they are gone..I wish you bad luck in your future and in whatever you do, n may you rot in hell for betraying the friendship bond that i thought we had.. and being so fake in front of us all the time, u humming jerk..
To the goddess.. if this is the way that you run the place, im sorry to say that you are just too childish and immature, for you to manipulate the people you had and have, and for you do make judgement based on your emotions (especially during your menopause period).. sorry to say, you are just a stupid old hag who thinks that running a business is like playing a 5 years old girl's game of masak masak.. you stupid i-am-goddess old witch..
To the 'acting' bastard, i hate you to the bones for the cunning and inhuman things that you have done, being the two-headed snake you are, may you live the rest of your life in terrible guilt and may your children grow up in shame to learn the dirty shits that their father has done and hate you to the bone too.. you two-faced liar..
To the plain janes slaving in there.. maybe its time for you to retire.. at your old age.. u should be relaxing somewhere.. instead of being ordered around like a dog, sniffing for people's whereabouts every 2 minutes that you don't see them, being the efficient PDA reminder you.. u know what irks me most? your 'i-know-im-old-but-i think-i-still can-fit-in-with-you-youngsters' attitude and your 'im-a-sec-when-u-need-a-sec-but-am-as-powderful-as-the-goddess-is'.. gimme a break.. you old granny you..
To the ting-tong lady.. my advice? stop being so fake.. you are just watching out for your big fat ass.. cowards, never like to take the blame and not even having the courage to sign a single document.. only know how to have meetings to see who shd you push the blame to, who cannot even compose an email which is dictated s.l.o.w.l.y to you..? english classes cant even help you.. coz you are too hopeless.. parasite.. feeding off other people.. thats what you are.. u big always showing off your spare-tyre you..
And to the rest of the bastards in RAT.. please take note that i will not acknowledge you when i see you in around in any places, not even when you are begging in the streets, i will not give you a cent off me, not when you are dying of hunger, i will rather feed the dogs roaming in the street rather thn feed you.. you pathetic useless fools..
Regards,
The person that you once called 'friend'
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Call this a hate mail or whatever, this will be my last post regarding the dark and dirty place about RAT.. i'm closing the door to the very dark corner of my heart.. taking out what i treasured.. and putting it in another brighter corner of my heart, where i will cherish that memories forever.. ;;)
This chapter of my life is closed..
** This post is entirely a work of fiction. The names, characters, organizations and incident portrayed in it are the work of the blogger's imagination. Any resemblance to the actual persons, living or dead, events, organizations or localities is entirely coincidental. :) The people close to me will fully understand the contents of this post.
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
I promised myself that i wouldn't write or think about Raytiers-AT aka RAT. anymore.. but i just cant help it to think of what the bastards in there did.. i admit... there is still anger in me.. anger which will not subside anytime soon.. the feeling, its like breaking up with someone u loved.. whom u trust whole-heartedly, but in the end betrayed you, stabbed you in the back.. anger, sadness, heartbroken.. thats wut i feel.. each time the subject of RAT is brought up back to me, i can feel the anger creeping back in me, its somethg which i cant control.. its out of my control.. i try my best not to think about RAT, of the bastards in there.. it spoils my mood.. but somehow or rather.. it will always have a spot in my heart.. permanantly.. in the dark corner of my heart.. where the door is not suppose to open anymore, but somehow.. there are still memories in there, which i treasure.. that make me cant shut the door forever just like that.. How can something start so beautifully and happy, end up in such a tragedy? its like a love story gone wrong.. very very wrong... thinking of the times we had together in our 1st few months in RAT is like.. i'll never wanna leave this place.. looking through the pictures that we took together.. thinking of the happier times we had together.. we had so much of fun.. But after a while, the goddess have to step in the fun,. n pull a stop to all of that.. isn't it a good thing when your people are close, that makes the workplace more peaceful.. jobs can be done without any questions ask.. but NO.. goddess have to separate us, promote some, indirectly fired some, make some happy, make some angry, just to split us.. some of the promoted.. went on being arrogant and cannot be seen wif the non-promoted.. because of the different level.. u know wut the Malays will call ppl like that? its called "Gila Kuasa".. there is where all the cracks in the so-called 'friendship' started.. then on.. its history..In short, RAT is just a stupid place, with stupid bosses, who hire stupid people, to do stupid things, to sell stupid services to stupid buyers who have been conned by the stupid bastards :)
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
Thursday, May 11, 2006
Im soooooooooo excited!!.. was reading The Star online just now and i saw this article..which made my day..
Sale of rare tulips to help the needy
"THE black tulip, a symbol of justice and the object of a great romance in Alexandre Dumas' classic novel by the same name, captured the attention of the Dutch at the height of their 17th century tulipmania.
The black tulips grown today are 20th century introductions and they are actually dark plum, purple or maroon in colour.Swash-buckling romances and obsessions aside, the black tulips grown today are 20th century introductions and they're actually dark plum, purple or maroon, as truly black flowers are virtually unknown in nature.
See how beautiful it is..?
“Flowers such as black tulips that are rare in nature, have undoubted appeal and that is why this year, we are bringing them in as a rare treat for the Air France-KLM Charity Tulip Sale,” said Air France-KLM country manager Estee Ng.
Taking place in Kuala Lumpur for the eighth time, Air France-KLM - the world's largest airline group - will once again be flying in fresh tulips from the Netherlands for its Charity Tulip Sale, which has now become one of the most anticipated events leading up to Mother's Day.
“At the Charity Tulip Sale, Malaysians have the opportunity to buy flowers to show appreciation to their mothers while helping the less fortunate,” said Ng.
This year, proceeds from the Charity Tulip Sale will go to Hospis Malaysia, a charitable organisation established in August 1991 that addresses the crucial need for professional palliative care services to those who live within the Klang Valley.
The sale will take place on Saturday, on the eve of Mother's Day, at the Concourse Level, Sungei Wang Plaza, from 11am, where tulips in many glorious hues as well as the luscious dark ones will be sold.
This year, Air France-KLM will be flying in 2,500 exotic tulips which will be sold at RM6 per bud
" - Source The Star Metro 11th May 2006
I know that they have this sale once a year, every year, since 8 years ago.. but i never knew the exact date, exact time, or exact venue for the sale, never noticed it in the papers all this years (except for one year when i was still in my sec sch, in JB) couldnt possibly come up all the way just for a stalk of tulips cant i.. hmmm..
My dream vacation has always been Netherlands, cuz i know that country has the most beutiful tulips that anyone ever had.. i have always envy my friends who has gone overseas AND visited a tulips garden.. *sobs* imagine rows and rows and rows of colorful tulips spread in a big big piece of land.. just tulips... wow.. If u cant imagine, i have provided an easier solution to it....
Im so totally in love with tulips since i dunno when.. haha.. BUT.. i actually havent seen or touch a real one yet *shy*.. I dunno.. its weird.. i loved the flower eversince i first laid my eyes on them (roses don't even come close to it).. but i never seem to have 'fate' with it.. tulips are hard to get here in malaysia.. it not a money-can-buy, type of flower where u can buy it whenever you want or need it.. u actually have to wait for its blooming season.. which usually,coincidentaly do NOT (or rathere, never) coincide with any particular reasons that calls for a celebration or wut so ever to have one.. haha.. And when the season comes, this flower is one hell of an expensive flower.. hmm.. and i think u have to buy a minimum of one dozen each time..so i never got to have one till now.. im not greedy.. i just need ONE stalk.. which will make me smile like anything...
So.. i guess u all know where to find me this saturday huh ;) See you there!
Thursday, May 11, 2006
Monday, May 08, 2006
Hey.. check me out on V Mag cover !!:P.. haha.. jz kidding.. was shopping at Mid Valley the other day thn Estee Lauder had this promotion.. though since i have so much time to kill.. may i shd go take my pic.. haha.. ever heard of shopping therapy??
Nothing much la.. just though that i would like to share the picture with all of you.. hmm.. but i seemed fatter here huh.. stupid photographer didn get a good angle for me... and the hairstyle.. make me look like im 10 years older too :(.. 1st thing i thought to myself after i saw the pic was.. 'hmm.. Why so fat wan..n the hair.. my gosh' -_-""
Hehe.. anyways.. i enjoyed my self too la.. getting make-up tips frm the pros.. thn the photo session was great too.. they took like 12 of my pics.. n made me choose only one for the cover, if i want the rest. i have pay... a freaking RM170 for a CD!!... i sd no.. shopping therapy is one thing.. but not to that extend.. haha.. anyways.. i already paid more than enough for the pic + the merchandise.. haha :P
Monday, May 08, 2006
YES!! i finally did it.. i finally found my freedom from hell.. right now, im feeling 101% over the moon.. the feeling was damn great after i gave my letter.. WOW.. the look on their faces, exactly as i predicted.. haha..May all who are left in there, rot in hell for those sinful things that they have done.. their goal was achieved, but so is mine!!.. haha.. curse the place.. i have nothing but bad bad things to say about that place, they have made my life so so so miserable that i will remember those faces, the things that they did, forever, and will haunt them in their dreams.. hoping that one day, people like them will suffer the retribution of all the thing that that have said and done.. God WILL punish them for me, alright!!Those people. they are forced to to all the bad things as directed by the 'perempuan kerusi'.. coz they know that they cannot survive anywer else other thn in that hell.. The hell.. yeah.. 'Raytiers-AT' the name of the hell wer they torture peoples mind, manipulate human beings, never appreciate anything that anyone had done, and get rid of the good.. and the guardian of Raytiers-AT, or rather the followers.. haha.. yeah.. right word there... main followers are demons like Benz Cung, Chirut, Silly, Janenifer.. and they recently recruited a few little devils to train, too.. haha.. naming them wud be such a waste of time.. too many little devils..Just keep a mental note for youselves who ever is reading my blog, if you are ever called to serve in the hell named Raytiers-AT, BEWARE!!.. the main followers of hell like to spin web of lies, to get rid of the good.. coz its hell u see.. they cant afford to have good humans in it.. good humans goes to heaven.. so the hell only recruit demons and devils.. like them.. so that they will train the little devils, to be to worst devil ever.. to do more evil things.... thats all i can say abt Raytiers-AT, the hell..Oh. an interesting post about the HELL by my fren too, which i think u shd go and read.. check the story out at http://dysfunktionalist.blogspot.com/2006/04/conspiracy-idiots-cowards-and-bitch.html
Monday, May 08, 2006
Hey all.. thousand appologies for the late posting for my Bangkok trip.. today is the 1st day that i really got to sit down in front of my Pc to do the editing, n post my blog..
It has been a non-stop adventure since i came back from bangkok.. my parents came down the weekend after i came back, i tendered my resignation (YEAH!!) the 1st day i step back into the office which was the best feeling i ever had in like 3-4 months.. i went out doing erands for the nxt few days, met up with my bestest darling ;;), thn went to melaka, oni got back late last nite.. busy busy.. hehe
anyway.. as promised.. my bangkok stories.. and pictures..
Basically.. bangkok.. is all about the food, n temples... for 4 days n 3 nites there, the ppl ard.. they brought us to temples after temples.. haha.. but its actually interesting.. coz they actually have different temples for diff purposes, like if you 1 2 pray for health.. u have to go to this temple, got business luck, go to that temple, actually, i cant rememer the names of the temples we went too *shy*.. hehe.. they have too many of them!!
We went to the grand palace too.. a very big place, we spent like almost 4 hours there i think.. under the hot sun, i almost gave up walking.. the sun can burn into my bones i tell you.... really 'people barbeque' haha.. but the palace was made of gold.. haha.. u can see gold tiles everywhere... hmm.. over heard a tour guide saying that each tile (1 inch X 1 inch) is worth USD 1000... hmm.. if only i could get my hands on one piece.. hehehe
If you are those type who cant walk a lot, and cant stand heat, u definately cant go to bangkok.. believe me.. we were walking everywer.. didn ever take much of a 'tuk tuk' or taxi.. and under the hot burning sun somemore.. haha.. torturing actually.. the 1st day itself, we actually walked 1 hours back to the hotel.. by the time we got back, no one can move anoter inch more.. haha
Oh... one thing i must mention though.. is that bangkok is truly a SHOPPING HEAVEN!!.. man.. i spent more thn RM400 just on shopping alone.. thats a lot of things, considering the price of the things there are so damn cheap!!.. i just buy, n buy, n buy.. haha.. ladies stuff mose of the shops there they sell.. clothes, shoes, accesories, watever u can think of.. n its CHEAP.. way more cheaper thn wat you can get in Malaysia, we actually spend 1 whole day just for shopping ONLY.. hehe.. and thats actually not enough...
We were pretty much worn out after 3-4 days of walking.. (not had enough of shopping, we actually got up extra early on the last day to do more shopping b4 our flight home.. hehe) Look our tired faces, n the eyebags.. haha.. pic too small cant see.. :P n look at ;;) haha.. she already has no wat so ever expression anymore on her face.. we all slept on the plane on the way back.. like a baby.. hahaha..
As a concludion.. i will definately make a trip back to bangkok in the near future.. i love the place there, food.. oh,, teh tom yum kung.. yummy!!.. shopping heaven.. n the people there are very very friendly.. I LOVE YOU , BANGKOK.. hahahaha
Monday, May 08, 2006
