urgh..!! i dont feel well... feels like im getting sick.. mayb is the weather, mayb is the virus in the office, mayb is the durian feast over the weekend, mayb its me... watever the reason.. i cant afford to get sick now.. but i can feel it all coming.. no appetite, feel like puking, headache.. sneezing.. spacing out.. cannot..not now.. this weekend i have stuffs to attend to, nxt weekend is my good fren's wedding...
OMG!!.. which reminds me.. I HAVE NO DRESS TO WEAR TO THE DINNER!!.. high alert emergency!!...damn.. i was suppose to get it on my last shopping spree, last weekend.. apparently SOMEONE (who hates shopping btw..) got stuffs instead of me *sobs*.. was planning to get it this weekend.. but sudden change of plans.. have to go melaka.. mayb i can get somethg in Melaka....(provided i dun get sick)..
damn... is it a psychological thinking or wut...?? now i feel like im getting fever..n dizzy as well -_-''''..
Thursday, July 13, 2006
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
sigh... i have not blogged for some time.. i know.. my mind is at a road block.. again.. this time, its abt bigger issues.. but dun worry.. no vulgarities this time.. but just pure concerns and worries abt the future.. i seriously dunno how 2 go about blogging it.. so this post is gonna be a bit messy.. i'll just write about what comes into my mind while blogging..
i forgot to charge my handphone last nite... arrgh... stupid me.. after 40 mins on the phone last nite.. i shd have charged it b4 i went to sleep.. but i didnt.. dunno y.. this morn on the way to work.. it died on me.. sigh.. i cant live without my hp.. damn... not at this time.. i cannot, not have my hp on.. no charger in the office too.. well.. there is la.. but not suitable for my phone.. the pin is smaller for mine..
anyways.... uh.. wat was i about to say??.... basically work has been boring for me.. maybe is the industry i guess.. am not suitable for this industry.. have started to dread coming to work... i dun like this kinda feeling at all.. horible feeling.. there is practically not much for me to do either (any colleagues reading, pls keep to your self, but i gues those who read my blogs are those that alr know abt the situation).. each day there i sit there and wait for the documents to come in.. getting lesser and lesser each day.. long working hours is killing me as well.. i really dunno how long can i cope with this situation.. really dunno... why are things so messed up..??
i wanna start my own something (not to be disclosed as yet).. but ppl closest to me is giving negative comments.. why?? you dont believe that i can do it?? I previously dun believe that it will work either.. but i had encouragement.. i had started searching.. i started planning.. and i believe that it can work.. i want to take the challange!! i builded up my confidence and courage, after so many months.. but all you have to do is to give one stupid discouraging comment.. it felt like i just got a slap in my face.. hurts... at this very crucial moment somemore!! ARRRGHHH!!...i had many What IF questions in my head...too many.. making me very stoned and worried... how should i proceed... at this moment, i cannot afford to NOT proceed.. my partner dumped a good offer.. just to be in this with me.. cant let her down.. I CAN'T!!!...
Such a mess.. each nite i cant sleep well.. i dun just close my eyes and sleep just like that anymore..worst.. i can wake up in the middle of the nite, heart beating very fast.. as if something made me very scared... and worried...felt like im stuck at a point where i dun even know my own direction in life...turn left? turn right? walk straight? can i really really go on with my plans...? im not superstitious, but i even thought of going to a fortune teller.. to tell me if this the right way for me.. see..? im desperate to have an answer, everything seems to clash in to same time.. my career, my future, my plans, my life....
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
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Hello and welcome to my blog. Basically reads in here are my humble thoughts, opinions. Read it, love it or hate it.
It's Me
Dreamer.Emotional.Sentimental.
Loves:
God. Being loved. Being Pampered. Coffee. Durians. Shoes. Fashion. Shopping.
Hates:
People telling me what to do. Housework. Stupid people. Betrayal. Backstabbers.
