Friday, October 20, 2006
Happy Birthday Daddeeee..
Today is my dad's birthday, and he is back in Malaysia for 10 days... yay!.. too bad he will be in JB, not KL... but.. i'll still get to see him nxt weekend..
Mom came to KL this morning, that leaves dad alone at home.. BUT to make up for that... i got him a pressie.. hehe.. one that he's been asking for... presenting to you ur Birthday present........
Hehe.. NOT the while family of Absolut Vodka of coz.. ur daugther didn strike any lottery as of yet.. and the money tree she planted at the backyard, dun seem to be growing.. hur hur hur... 
Absolute Citron!
Friday, October 20, 2006
Finally, things are moving again for my boutique, we got price-hacked by the previous renovators.. quoting us far too high from our budget, and giving us the quotation last minute right before he starts the renovation.... to think that we trusted him, to give u a good price, since its my fren's - bf's - bro's - contractor.. sigh. that stupid mess-up cost us the delay.. which my shop WAS suppose to open TODAY... sad.. We had to hunt for new renovators, last minute, but its worth the hunt, as the final price agreed for the same things are waaaaaaaaay much more lower thn the previous's quote. Thank goodness we didn get conned by that idiot.. But anyway, the new renovators started work already and is due to finish soon.. and we've picked another day for the opening... which will be on...3rd November 2006
HOPEFULLY that this time, we will get to open on time.. no more delays, n shiets... Im actually still stuck at plans for the opening ceremony, any ideas anyone??
Well..its a long holidays ahead, which i will be heading to..... yeap.. u guess it.. Melaka, wer else.. so i wun be updating anytime soon.. will only be back from Melaka on next Wednesday... will update you guys on the progress of the reno as well... hopefully its in shape enuf for me to take some pictures for you to see.. haha..
Happy holidays to all... Happy Deepavali to all my Indian friends out there, and Selamat Hari Raya to all Muslims!
Friday, October 20, 2006
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
i was jz msn-ing my friend, saying that 'if i dun blog, i'll rot..' thn i noticed that it rhymes... haha.. ok.. crappy joke.. nvm
anyways... i was at Bb's office one of the fridays, (2 fridays ago.. i think).. well, actually i went swimming at my sis's plce, thn was having my supper.. when he got a call from the office asking him to go back..to settle some stuffs.. thats actually the 2nd time that i actually stepped into TPM (Technology Park Malaysia).. where he is working...
i was awe-d by the place actually.. wished that my work place is half as nice.. they actually have a big pond in the middle of the building.. BIG mind you.. and all the way up the staircase, there are smaller ponds along the way.. and the sound of the water rushing down.. is so soothing.. if i ever get to work there, i dun think i'll ever get stressed..
Here are some pics to share.. its a bit grainy.. coz i took it wif my handphone..
This is the BIG pond i was talking about... see.. i wasnt lying!
Cantik kan? and thats oni half of the staircase,, its goes all the way down.. oh.. by the way.. ignore the 2 accidental models in that pic.. hur hur hur, the one further away is Bb.. and the nearer one is my hse mate, Sean
Each and every few steps, there will be diferent fishes in different ponds.. they have one which houses BIG cat fishes.. big as in 4-5 feet long ones... no joke.. didn take photo of that.. coz ikan tu hitam hitam.. ape pun tak nampak.. while i walk around, i felt as if i am visiting the aquaria or somethg.. haha
Real fishes ok...? i just cant imgaine anyone working there, can get too stressed up... staring at the fishes swiming around so freely, can clear loads out of my mind completely...
Just by looking at this picture, i can practically hear the sound of the water in my head
Well... for those of you who have been there, or even work there.. dun blame me for being a 'jakun' coz .. I HAVE NEVER WORKED IN SUCH A BEAUTIFUL WORKING ENVIRONMENT BEFORE... there!
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
Words cant express how i feel, and what is going through my mind right now..it feels like my heart has been brokenits so painful when i start thinking about so many thingsit feels like i just had a bad breakupit feels so tired of beating so fast whenever i worry about stuffsi feel so tired.. of worrying about so many thingsdad, will tell me.. life's like thatif you think this is bad, how can you manage when your business runs?dad will laugh off, saying that this is life..this is how you learn..but dad, im just so mentally n physically tired of everythingi just wish that i can stop everything right now and go visit you, in vietnamperhaps my previous decision to postphone my trip, was wrong..you say that, there's no right, without any wrongs...but y do i have to go thru the wrongs, before knowing what is right?sometimes i wish that i can just crytheres so much in me that i think if i dun cry, or let it all out, i mite just have a breakdown anytime soon,why ?is this the way life is?if it is, thn i can say that life sucks..i used to think that living by myself, without my parents by my side everydaymakes me more independent, to go through life the harder way, to get the things that i want, the harder way,to reach my goals, the harder waybut sometimes, i just wish that i can be like everyone else, to have a family to go home to everydayto share my joy, n my pain..to cry to, and will understand the reason i cry..i wish....
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
Thursday, October 12, 2006
Unfortunately, there has been some delays in the renovations of the shop, due to some hiccups, therefore my shop will not open on time as scheduled on 20th October 2006. We have to delay opening it till further notice for now, as we have yet to pick an auspicious date to open, after 20th October 2006. But i will assure you guys that it will not be delayed for a long time as i am also anxious to open it as well..Im keeping my fingers and toes cross, and please pray for my shop's success as well..
Thursday, October 12, 2006
Thank you very much for the bouquet of flowers, for my boutique. They are lovely.. ^_^
Love you guys lots *muaks* - Renee, Jacky and Sandy
Thursday, October 12, 2006
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
I was reading thru my cousin's blog when i saw this article.. its very very touching.... almost made me cry while reading it.. and i wud like to share it with all of you... (its a bit long.. but believe me, its worth reading)
I will carry you
On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms. So I carried her into our home. She was then plump and shy. I was a strong and happy bridegroom.
This was the scene ten years ago.
The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid; I went into business and tried to make more money. When the assets were steadily increasing, the affection between us seemed to ebb. She was a sales officer. Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same time.Our kid was studying in a boarding school.
Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes.
Jennifer came into my life.
It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Jennifer hugged me from behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was the apartment I bought for her.
Jennifer said, you are the kind of man who best draws girls' eyeballs. Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife. When we were just married, my wife said, Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls.
Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife. But I couldn't help doing so.
I moved Jennifer's hands aside and said you go to select some furniture, O.K.? I've got something to do in the company. Obviously she was unhappy, because I had promised to do it together with her. At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me.
However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt.
Honestly, she was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner. I was sitting in front of the TV. The dinner was ready soon. Then we watched TV together. Or, I was lounging before the computer, visualizing Jennifer's body. This was the means of my entertainment.
One day I said to her in a slightly joking way, suppose we divorce, what will you do? She stared at me for a few seconds without a word. Apparently she believed that divorce was something too far away from her. I couldn't imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious.
When my wife went to my office, Jennifer had just stepped out. Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while talking to her. She seemed to have got some hint. She gently smiled at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes.
Once again, Jennifer said to me, He Ning, divorce her, O.K.? Then we live together. I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate any more.
When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. I've got something to tell you, I said. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth.But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the serious topic calmly.
She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I'm serious. I avoided her question.
This so-called answer made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks andshouted at me, you are not a man!
That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew.
With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart.The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day. But I could not take back what I had said.
Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer.
Late that night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her writing something at the table. I fall asleep fast. When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again.
She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but I was supposed to give her one month s time before divorce, and in the month's time we must live as normal a life as possible.
Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didn't want himto see our marriage was broken.
She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, He Ning, do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day? This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me. I nodded and said, I remember. You carried me in your arms, she continued, so, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce. From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning.
I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage romantically.
I told Jennifer about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce, she said scornfully. Her words more or lessmade me feel uncomfortable.
My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy.Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain.
From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly, Let us start from today, don't tell our son. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for a bus, I drove to the office.
On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this intimate woman carefully for a long time. I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles on her face.
On the third day, she whispered to me, the outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there.
On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms. The visualization of Jen became vague.
On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as,where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc. I nodded. The sense of intimacy was even stronger. I didn't tell Jennifer about this.
I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. I said to her, It seems not difficult to carry you now. She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I smiled. But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because I was stronger. I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart. Again, I felt a sense of pain. Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head.
Our son came in at the moment. Dad, it's time to carry mum out. He said. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my arms, walkingfrom the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally.
I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.
On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. She said, actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old.
I held her tightly and said, both you and I didn't notice that our life lacked intimacy.
I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision.I walked upstairs. Jennifer opened the door. I said to her, Sorry, Jenny, I won't divorce. I'm serious.
She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. You got no fever. She said. I moved her hand off myhead. Sorry, Jen, I said, I can only say sorry to you, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of life, not because we didn't love each other any more.
Now I understand that since I carried her into the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old.So I have to say sorry to you.
Jennifer seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove to the office.
When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her favorite. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until we are old....
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
Monday, October 09, 2006
As the days passes by, the nearer it gets to the planned opening day, of my shop.. but there are still lot of stuffs to be done.. renovation is STILL in the progress... haven even had a weekend to myself for such a long time.. well last week end, we went shopping.... for this :
yeap.. mannequins.. haha.. feel weird shopping for this kinda stuffs...different from my usuall definitation of shopping..hehe... i was given a catalog with diff 'Girls' striking diff poses.. thn im suppose to pick the 'girls' that i want.. hehe.. sadly enuf, they dun have those that i like.. those prettier ones, wif more special poses.. so i have to settle for those more ordinary ones..(but still pretty!)
i finally pick 4 of my prettiest gals.. hehe.. kinda of hard to brg THEM home thou.. coz they are life size.. which means, its just like fetching 4 real girls home and when 4 girls sqeeze into the back of a Proton Wira, u can imagine what is it like.. THEY can be halved.. body, n limbs, legs, hands, right down to their wrist.. so 4 of THEM (the body) sat at the back of the car.. n their limbs are all stuffed in the boot.. (pour some red stain on it, will look like a scene out of a horror movie.. the serial killer, trying to transport the bodies.. muahaha)
Anyways.. managed to squeeze them and some other stuffs that we bought, into the car.. *td you we shd have bought a SUV instead.. :P* .. funny sight thou.. imagine u driving nxt to our car.. haha.. tengok tengok, belakang got 4 naked girls... muahahaha
Got my housemate, Sean to help to bring the 'Girls' upstairs (i live in an apartment).. and i dun wanna walk 10 times up n down the apartment with THEM..
hey.. can you come down n help us with our 'things' ?
ok... (met us downstairs).. *speechless*.. umm.. so this are the 'things' huh..
yeap.. dun worry.. they are not heavy.. plus, i can loan them to you tonite, for helping me.. hehe
yeah.. good idea.. but their boobs are so small...no fun.. nvm.. do i get to choose?
of coz... u can take them all at once too.. just help me take gooooooood care of them... *smirk smirk*
Now they are all sitting there in my hall.. waiting to be transported (again) down my apartment (again) into the car (again) and to the shop.. and at the last count.. there are still 4 of them there.. guess Sean's not interested huh.. hahaha
Monday, October 09, 2006
Friday, October 06, 2006
I cant remember the last time i went on a shopping spree or splurge on anything... in fact, i haven bought any new shoes since 2 mths ago.. inside of me is screaming to go shopping... i wanna buy shoes... i wanna buy clothes.. i wanna buy bags.. wuts stopping me?... u guessed it.. Ka-ching!..
Sigh.. i dunno wer my money goes to each month.. all i know is that by the end of the month, i practically have to live on chap fan (mixed vege) for lunch and maggi mee for dinner.. maybe is my credit card debts.. blame it all on them.. when i 1st got my card(s), i didn learn to control, not until it got so out of hand, and now i am still paying the price of it.. after like more thn a year... at the rate im paying, i cud have been driving a Toyota Vios around town..
Each time pay day comes, more thn half of my salary goes to paying rent and bills, another half goes to meals (hey.. living out side means paying for 3 meals a day, ok?).. Sometimes i couldnt help but to think.. IF i were to be staying with my family.. how would my life be now? i might have so much more of savings in my bank, compared to the so minimal amount that i have right now.. hmmm...
Even my shopping trend is different.. i shop at... Jusco.. Carrefour.. Giant.. haha.. hypermarkets.. to get groceries, daily neccesities.. each time i go there.. i spend no less than RM100... those place are evil i tell you.. each things that you pick up, mayb be cheap - less thn rm10... but after u pick n pick... n pick... n pick, by the time u round the whole hypermarket... u get a trolley full of "cheap" things.. thn as the cashier 'tit' the stuffs. one by one.. ur eyes grow bigger n bigger when you see the accumulated total, growing more n more.. and you end up paying so much more..
my formula..:
Cheap + cheap = Expensive
haha... sigh... i cud buy a dress, or 2 blouses, each time i step out of a hypermarket.. or even a decent pair of shoes..
Friday, October 06, 2006
haha.. and it rhymes.. :P.. dun ask me why, but i was surfing around, and saw this link for clocks, and thought that my blog needed something animated.. so.. i got myself a clock... and its pink in color too.. hehe.. awww... so sweet and pretty..
Friday, October 06, 2006
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
Allrighty.. if you guys have been reading my blog, you wud have remembered that i promised that i have an
announcement to make early October.. right?
so here goes...
Im gonna have my own shop soon.. MY own boutique!! isnt it great news.... for me?? hehe
Its schedule to open on the 20th of this month, yeap.. u heard me.. thats like only 17days to go, which explains my msn nick as well (for those of you who has my msn, you wud have seen me counting down since a month ago)..
Planning has been done like 4-5 months ago, after i quit at that rat-ty place.. i got tired of working for people.. y work so damn hard, for ppl's company (and money), when i can work equally hard for my own.. right? actually this is my 2nd attempt on the business, 1st one was well.. lets just says that i choose the wrong partners, different view, different ideas, different concept for the shop.. so i dis-band myself from it... and kept the dream alive in my self..
Then i found another partner, this time, more than perfect, the fact that she is one of my ji muis, bestest fren in college, shareing the same idea, same concept, same tastes... we are just like a perfect partner made in heaven.. hehe.. after some researching and scouting, we finally found a perfect location for our shop... in Malacca, right next to Makotha Parade, frontier, how much more perfect could it be, right?
We named our shop.... guess wut? TULIPS FASHION... hehe.. got the logo right here, but its not to be oficially revealed yet.. so bear in there... will be letting you in on details in time to come..
Does this explains about my weird blogging sometimes? being not clear in some posts.. but i did 1 2 keep it as a hush-hush till things are confirmed.. thats y i've been thinking of quitting as well. coz i need time to concentrate on my shop, but i do not have enough leaves to take, and they definately do not consider no-pay leave for this kind of reasons in here..
im just so excited to be able to share this with all of you, especially keeping it like a top secret n stuffs for ages.. and i cant wait for my shop to open...my OWN shop.. im sending out the invitations to our opening ceremony soon.. that goes for all of my blog readers here as well.. how could i miss you sweeties out.. ;)
check in soon, i'll get the invi ready soon...
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
